I Am Well

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"What makes the desert beautiful," says the little prince, "is that somewhere it hides a well."
Antoine de Saint Exupéry, "The Little Prince"
Love is a state of Being. Your love is not outside; it is deep within you. You can never lose it, and it cannot leave you. 
Eckhart Tolle

 

    When anyone asks me how I’m doing, I’ve adopted the response, “I am well,” because even if I’m having trouble making ends meet, and even if I have an exam or a deadline looming, and even if the kids and I are having adjustment difficulties and even if my mother didn’t recognize me during my last visit – I am well. 
    Everyone knows those people that dump a load of their maladies when innocently asked, "How’s it going?"  It never feels great on the receiving end of theses offloads.  I do have a network of friends that get the updates on current developments but it’s in the spirit of working through a problem, brainstorming solutions, not simply easing my load. 
    So am I lying to myself and to others when I respond “I am well” when sometimes the visible indicators point to the contrary? No.  I am well.  Literally.  I am a well.  It’s become my mantra because no matter how scorched or parched or overexposed I feel, no matter how weak or close to extinguished I feel, I know I can dig deep into my being, deep into my personal well,  and come up with the cooling, quenching strength that allows me to go on.  I am a well.  The more I say it, the more I believe it.  I am well.  The more I say it, the more it is true.  I am well.
    And then there are those moments when I can naturally tap into a deep sense of peace and joy - the me that is underneath the drama of this breakup - the calm me that is underneath the rough surface waves of the storm. It doesn't happen often, but when it does there is a deep knowing that I am well. 

Dig deep and tap into your personal well.  You are stronger than you will ever need to be.