What’s wrong with you?

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Breathe and all will be revealed; love and all will be healed. This is yoga. 
Seane Corn 

    My daughter is becoming defiant, as young girls usually do as they enter adolescence. Yesterday I was having difficulty getting her cooperation to do anything from getting out the door for school to helping with the dishes. By the end of the day I was tired and frustrated and I got angry with her (not that getting angry helped the situation).
    I went to bed, hoping that things wouldn’t become increasingly challenging over the next few years. I had managed to get out of a tumultuous relationship with my daughter’s father, I didn’t want to now have one now with her. 
    I woke up super early this morning, and I couldn’t fall back to sleep. I got out of bed to do yoga and as I was breathing through the asanas, I heard these words that I spoke in anger to my daughter yesterday, “What is wrong with you?” And then the tears flowed down my cheek. 
    How could I have spoken those words to her? I didn’t ever want her to feel that there was something wrong with who she was. Yes, what she was doing was causing me grief but even then, she was starting to separate herself from me as most kids do at her age. To make matters worse, I had been in a relationship with her father who made me feel that something was wrong with me and now I was making her feel that something was wrong with her. I was victim and villain, simultaneously.
    So first, I had to forgive myself for embodying that which I found so difficult in Ex-man. Secondly, I had to finish my yoga practice and wait until my daughter woke up to apologize.

Do you act in ways that are not good for yourself and those around you? Can you recognize those moments and make amends?