Quantum Marbles

31 Marbles 
Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself.  
Leo Tolstoy
Things do not change; we change.
Henry David Thoreau
What we achieve inwardly will change outer reality.
Plutarch (46-120 CE)
 
     All is quiet - it’s New Year’s day.  Time to take inventory of what I want to get rid of in my life and what I want to keep. But what if what I want to get rid of is my whole way of being?
     Recently I read an article by Dr. Joe Dispenza that made me think of this marble year in a whole new light. According to Dispenza, “Newtonian (classical) physics was about trying to anticipate and predict events.” He says when the external environment controls your internal environment (the way you think and feel), that’s the cause and effect of Newtonian Physics. 
      At 365 Marbles, my internal environment was being strongly affected by the external environment of a breakup.  Marble by marble, I’ve been trying to make a shift in my internal environment. In Dispenza’s words, “You want to change your internal environment and then see how the external environment is altered by your efforts. That’s putting the quantum model of reality into action.”
     Furthermore, Dispenza suggests employing the power of gratitude in the process by giving thanks for something that exists in the quantum field before it has happened in reality.  By doing so, you move to “causing an effect (changing something inside of you to produce an effect outside of you.)”
     I unwittingly engaged this process when I embarked on the marble journey. I had faith and a sense of gratitude that however raw I was feeling post breakup would not be how I would always feel.  Now I get to stop and appreciate that 335 Marbles later, my belief became a reality and I am feeling whole. The next step would be to know that I was whole regardless of what was happening in my external environment.  This is the inner peace that still eludes me. As Eckhart Tolle writes, “Happiness depends on conditions being perceived as positive; inner peace does not.”  But I’m not a Jedi yet. Not quite a Jedi yet. 

May all your marbles be quantum marbles…