New Orleans Revisited

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Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage.
Anaïs Nin

     Dude from New Orleans called me yesterday. His friend went back to Costa Rica and now he’s inviting me down for Mardi Gras at the end of the month (Yep, I know, he’s got a bit of a revolving door). When I think of my ideal mate list, I know that he doesn’t quite feel right (although he does have many of the attributes on the list). Yet despite the mini-drama with the other woman, it’s not like I can’t trust him. I can trust him to be who he is but I know that, in the long-run, who he is won’t fit with who I am. 
     I passed the idea of me going to New Orleans by Ex-man and, because his landscaping biz is slow right now, he said, “We’ll work it out.” Still not sure why there seems to be more “we” in his universe now that we’re not together when “we” was such a challenge when we were together. Yet why do I even go there? Happily, that’s not really my concern anymore. 
     I had to look at my school timetable to see if I could swing it.  Because two of my courses are online this term, it makes the trip more of a possibility.  I have a field study due for my Earth and Ocean Science course but when I emailed my prof, she told me that I could do the field study while I was there. That idea got me excited so I searched the internet and found a prof from Tulane University who gives tours of the (failed) levy system.  Apparently this and the subsequent report would qualify for my field research.  Yay!
      I still had to figure out the financing for the adventure - I don’t want to go into debt to go to Mardi Gras - that just doesn’t feel right. Then I thought of a wee investment that I have that’s just sitting there, doing nothing. If I cash it in, it should cover my expenses while I’m there.
     So after a few phone calls, some emails, and some online booking, I’ve decided to fly south to visit dude and check out Mardi Gras. I’ve also been clear with dude where I’m at and what his expectations for the visit can be. Not sure why, but it feels like our circle is not complete. I know I'm supposed to be there with dude once more.  

Do you trust your intuition enough to do things that don't always seem logical? Or does your logical mind always trump your intuitive side? What would happen if both sides got to be heard?