The First Leaf Unfurls

125 Marbles 

    My favorite shirt right now is one given by my running partner to my son who promptly outgrew it.  I was in the process of throwing it into the donation bin when I took it out and kept it.  I started wearing it despite the fact that I don’t really like t-shirts.  It is a light green shirt with a silhouette of an expansive tree with roots reaching deep into the ground.  It reminds me of a yoga teacher who once kept us all in Tree Pose for a delayed amount of time and told us all to “Grow roots.”  At first I was fixated on trying to maintain my balance but that phase passed and soon I reached a few moments of equilibrium where I was just able to be.  It was only when I was able to let go of my focus on balance that I was truly able to find my core. 
    I went into my kitchen this morning and noticed that my rubber plant (Marble 295) has grown a new leaf.  At first this tender new leaf grew protected in a spike-shaped sheath but today the protection fell away and the new leaf unfurled. 
    It’s been 242 marbles and almost eight months since Ex-man moved out.  I finally feel like my feet are directly under me and I have my balance, now the question is “Where do I want to go?” (I can’t stay in tree pose forever.) I’ve been thinking about that question a lot these days and the response that keeps pestering me as I’m working on my script is, “I want to go to New Orleans.”

Do you feel that you have your balance post breakup? If so, where would you like to go?

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