241 Marbles –
My Ex-husband used to tell me, “You read too deeply into things.” I confess – I do. I often wished that I could look at the world as he did – to take things at their surface value. Yep, sometimes a weathered chair is just a weathered chair (Marble 294), but I see metaphors in many things. It’s how I tap into my awareness.
I wish I could be a water skier – having fun while skimming the surface of the water. Or maybe it’s just that I want to have more fun - have sex for fun - dance for fun -but so far, I’m not so good at that. I’m the scuba diver that pops her head above the surface, sees what’s happening and dives below the surface to see what’s really happening. My son often says of my insights, “Wow, Mom, that’s deep” (he might be more like his father).
I’m not sure why I am the way I am – if it’s my star sign (pisces), my Chinese sign (fire horse), my numerological aspects, my position in my family (the baby), my past life experiences. or perhaps a hearty stew of all of the above. All I know is that it’s no use fighting it – I am who I am. My goal, however, is to have more fun.
Last night I took the kids to the park to kick the soccer ball around (I’ve overcome the idea that this is a Dad’s job). It was the kids against me and they beat me. This morning my daughter said, “That was fun last night. You laughed a lot.” I did.
Something to be grateful for: Not being able to kick the ball because I’m laughing so hard.
Can you appreciate who you are in the world regardless of how/why you got that way? What would it take to have more fun in your life?
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