Letting go already...
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I had a dream about Ex-man last night. Really, subconscious mind? When will you be done with him? Or was it because he wasn’t at the dinner party that he showed up in my dream? Ugh! It’s frustrating trying to move on in my waking life and being sucked into the past when I close my eyes!!! The worst part is that in my dream we were together in the carnal sense (the only action I’m getting is when I’m sleeping).
After we had sex, Ex-man left me in bed to go back to school. I followed him to his class where I had to pull back a veiled curtain to see if he was there. At first glance, I didn’t see him, then I saw his signature white hair talking to another girl. He saw me and came out of class and walked right by me. I was of two minds, the first mind telling me to walk away from the table- scrap relationship. The other mind won over and I grabbed his arm while the people in the hall stared. At first he spurned me, saying, “Nobody knows about you here. I’ve borrowed rulers and compasses from other girls.” Then he caught my eye and in an instant he knew what a jerk he was being. He held me close to him on the hallway steps and I hugged him.
Then my recessive mind started taking over. I thought, “He saved face in the hallway - he didn’t want to make a scene but I will not be going back to him.” Then I walked away.
Can we make a deal subconscious mind? Can this be the last sex dream I have with Ex-man as the leading man?
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