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Not sure if it’s the wisest decision I’ve ever made, but Ex-man invited me up to the lake where we have always holidayed and I accepted. He’ll be sleeping in his camper behind the cabing while I’m there and I’ll have a chance to get a break with the kids. They’ll leave a few days before me and I’ll meet them up there in a few weeks.
I love the location -it’s a beautiful lake with no powerboats. The cabins are not fabulous but the view from them is spectacular – weeping willows and water with an arid mountain backdrop. Ex-man’s family stays at adjacent cabins with some of their family friends. This tradition is something that I’ve been part of for over a decade of shared happy hours, wine tours, kayaking, jogging, and hiking expeditions.
Yep, I’m in that limbo stage between holding on to the past and moving into the future, completely leaving Ex-man and our shared history behind. It’s challenging – this is a man who I grew up with, lost our “innocence” with and had children with – he represents everything I came from and sometimes I have little to no idea where I’m going.
What is the fine line between congenial relations with your X and holding on to him/her? What would it take for you to let go and get on with your life?
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