186 Marbles
Rafiki: Asante sana Squash banana, Wiwi nugu Mi mi apana!
Adult Simba: Enough already! What's that supposed to mean, anyway?
Rafiki: It means you're a baboon... and I'm not.
Adult Simba: I think you're a little confused.
Rafiki: Wrong! I'm not the one who's confused. You don't even know who you are!
Disney’s “The Lion King”
Last week I went to The Lion King playing in a local park. The above scene reminded me of the feeling that I had the first year I went back to school for writing. Ex-man and I were having some serious challenges, my kids were younger and more demanding and (despite going back to school for what I love doing) I had seriously lost connection with who I was. I was angry at Ex-man and frustrated with our relationship and I had lost access to my own strength.
After a particularly demanding week, I went to class feeling spent. One of my cohorts came in late after cycling to school. When I looked up at her, she was glowing and I saw that she was being who she was meant to be. The words, “You have forgotten who you are” popped into my head and for a moment I was clear that my relationship with Ex-man was wrong for me (as was the relationship I was having with myself). Yet, “because of the kids” I ignored what I knew to be true.
Marianne Williamson says, “When we let our light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.” My classmate’s presence gave me a silent invitation to step into more of who I was. Despite staying with Ex-man for some time after that day in class, I was more aware that I had another choice. Eckhart Tolle wrote, “Tragedy is the loss of the knowledge of who you are, with the result that you do not contribute what you are here to do.” What I know about my relationship with Ex-man is that so much energy was spent in frustration and conflict that I had much less to contribute to what I am here to do. As I draw my energy back 179 Marbles post breakup, I notice that I have more energy to be who I want to be and who I am meant to be.
Rafiki: Asante sana Squash banana, Wiwi nugu Mi mi apana!
Adult Simba: Enough already! What's that supposed to mean, anyway?
Rafiki: It means you're a baboon... and I'm not.
Adult Simba: I think you're a little confused.
Rafiki: Wrong! I'm not the one who's confused. You don't even know who you are!
Disney’s “The Lion King”
Last week I went to The Lion King playing in a local park. The above scene reminded me of the feeling that I had the first year I went back to school for writing. Ex-man and I were having some serious challenges, my kids were younger and more demanding and (despite going back to school for what I love doing) I had seriously lost connection with who I was. I was angry at Ex-man and frustrated with our relationship and I had lost access to my own strength.
After a particularly demanding week, I went to class feeling spent. One of my cohorts came in late after cycling to school. When I looked up at her, she was glowing and I saw that she was being who she was meant to be. The words, “You have forgotten who you are” popped into my head and for a moment I was clear that my relationship with Ex-man was wrong for me (as was the relationship I was having with myself). Yet, “because of the kids” I ignored what I knew to be true.
Marianne Williamson says, “When we let our light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.” My classmate’s presence gave me a silent invitation to step into more of who I was. Despite staying with Ex-man for some time after that day in class, I was more aware that I had another choice. Eckhart Tolle wrote, “Tragedy is the loss of the knowledge of who you are, with the result that you do not contribute what you are here to do.” What I know about my relationship with Ex-man is that so much energy was spent in frustration and conflict that I had much less to contribute to what I am here to do. As I draw my energy back 179 Marbles post breakup, I notice that I have more energy to be who I want to be and who I am meant to be.
A breakup can feel like you’re losing something that you are (a spouse/partner/girlfriend) but on a deeper level, it doesn’t affect who you be. In Eckhart Tolle’s words, “You can only lose something that you have, but you cannot lose something that you are.” Can you let go of the circumstances of your breakup and be open to who you are on a deeper level?
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