251 Marbles
Confidence comes not from always being right but from not fearing to be wrong.
Peter T. McIntyre
There’s a park in the city where I live that is bigger than NY’s Central Park. It has a 9 km seawall that circles most of the path. I run this “seawall” once a week with my newish running buddy, Ben. Whether I’m alone, or with my running buddy, I think of the seawall as a seewall because of the many insights I’ve had on this oceanside path.
Today on our run, Ben noted that I was still having difficulty letting go of Ex-man. It’s been almost four months and some of my stories still have Ex-man as a supporting character. Ben asked me to come up with some pros and cons of having Ex-man in my life considering we didn’t get along well. I told him, “He was neat.” “As in tidy?” Ben asked. “Yep.” “That’s the first thing that came to mind?” “Yep,” I answered, although I know Ex-man has more alluring pros than being compulsively clean. A list proves nothing as everyone has pros and cons to their personality. Besides, lists are too left brain for me.
The list failed but the talk with Ben succeeded in uncovering one of the reasons I’m still holding on. I told Ben, “Here’s the deal - I want to be right. I want to be right about falling in love with Ex-man when I first saw him. I want to be right about going back to him and having two kids with him. On some level the breakup proves me wrong and I want to be right.” That was a pretty hefty insight to uncover about myself - the underlying need to be right, whatever that means.
I’m applying for a Writing for TV course in my last year at school. It’s possible that the episode with Ex-man is just an aired episode. I can’t go back and change an episode once it’s aired, all I can do is work with what I’ve written and move forward. No use trying to live in rerun land. Onward, always onward.
There’s a famous quote by Earl Gray Stevens that goes, “Confidence, like art, never comes from having all the answers; it comes from being open to all the questions.” What other hidden beliefs keep you holding on to your past relationship with X?
Confidence comes not from always being right but from not fearing to be wrong.
Peter T. McIntyre
There’s a park in the city where I live that is bigger than NY’s Central Park. It has a 9 km seawall that circles most of the path. I run this “seawall” once a week with my newish running buddy, Ben. Whether I’m alone, or with my running buddy, I think of the seawall as a seewall because of the many insights I’ve had on this oceanside path.
Today on our run, Ben noted that I was still having difficulty letting go of Ex-man. It’s been almost four months and some of my stories still have Ex-man as a supporting character. Ben asked me to come up with some pros and cons of having Ex-man in my life considering we didn’t get along well. I told him, “He was neat.” “As in tidy?” Ben asked. “Yep.” “That’s the first thing that came to mind?” “Yep,” I answered, although I know Ex-man has more alluring pros than being compulsively clean. A list proves nothing as everyone has pros and cons to their personality. Besides, lists are too left brain for me.
The list failed but the talk with Ben succeeded in uncovering one of the reasons I’m still holding on. I told Ben, “Here’s the deal - I want to be right. I want to be right about falling in love with Ex-man when I first saw him. I want to be right about going back to him and having two kids with him. On some level the breakup proves me wrong and I want to be right.” That was a pretty hefty insight to uncover about myself - the underlying need to be right, whatever that means.
I’m applying for a Writing for TV course in my last year at school. It’s possible that the episode with Ex-man is just an aired episode. I can’t go back and change an episode once it’s aired, all I can do is work with what I’ve written and move forward. No use trying to live in rerun land. Onward, always onward.
There’s a famous quote by Earl Gray Stevens that goes, “Confidence, like art, never comes from having all the answers; it comes from being open to all the questions.” What other hidden beliefs keep you holding on to your past relationship with X?
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