178 Marbles
I interrupt this regular blog (which has become irregular this past week) to insert a post from five years into the future. For those of you who haven’t read the intro pages to 365 Marbles, the breakup with Ex-man happened five years ago (more or less). But in present time, I’m living life sans Ex-man and enjoying exploring a newish lover of eight months.
It may seems strange but me, my lover, and my kids are currently up at the lake where I holidayed with Ex-man for all those years (this also explains the irregular postings). To add to the coziness, all his family are in the adjoining cabins.
I have friends that have said, “You’re brave!” or just, “Why?” but when Ex-man asked if I’d like to split the week with him (him taking the first part of the week in the cabin, me taking the latter part) I talked with my lover and agreed. The kids so enjoy being up at the lake (it’s part of their childhood tradition) and Ex-man could only take the first part of the week away from work. I also enjoy the lake but I was concerned that it would be too steeped in memories of Ex-man and me - too old feeling. Surprisingly, there is little of Ex-man here. Why? Because I am living in present time and feeling happy about the route my life has taken including the 365 Marbles of the breakup.
There is a slight difference that I note with my newish lover. In the past, I have often been focused on relationship and keeping relationship alive. Whereas connection is still important to me, there has been a shift in the way I feel about it. I picture my lover as being in my orbit much like a planet that revolves around the sun (this isn’t as egocentric as it may sound - it's more about being the source of my own life). I believe that my lover and I will be in each other's orbit for as long as there is that gravitational pull of love, mutual growth, and enjoyment and right now there is plenty of gravitational pull.
And now I must interrupt this blog to continue with my regularly scheduled vacation…
Albert Einstein wrote, “Everything is energy and that’s all there is to it. Match the frequency of the reality you want and you cannot help but get that reality. It can be no other way. This is not philosophy. This is physics.” What reality do you want to create?
I interrupt this regular blog (which has become irregular this past week) to insert a post from five years into the future. For those of you who haven’t read the intro pages to 365 Marbles, the breakup with Ex-man happened five years ago (more or less). But in present time, I’m living life sans Ex-man and enjoying exploring a newish lover of eight months.
It may seems strange but me, my lover, and my kids are currently up at the lake where I holidayed with Ex-man for all those years (this also explains the irregular postings). To add to the coziness, all his family are in the adjoining cabins.
I have friends that have said, “You’re brave!” or just, “Why?” but when Ex-man asked if I’d like to split the week with him (him taking the first part of the week in the cabin, me taking the latter part) I talked with my lover and agreed. The kids so enjoy being up at the lake (it’s part of their childhood tradition) and Ex-man could only take the first part of the week away from work. I also enjoy the lake but I was concerned that it would be too steeped in memories of Ex-man and me - too old feeling. Surprisingly, there is little of Ex-man here. Why? Because I am living in present time and feeling happy about the route my life has taken including the 365 Marbles of the breakup.
There is a slight difference that I note with my newish lover. In the past, I have often been focused on relationship and keeping relationship alive. Whereas connection is still important to me, there has been a shift in the way I feel about it. I picture my lover as being in my orbit much like a planet that revolves around the sun (this isn’t as egocentric as it may sound - it's more about being the source of my own life). I believe that my lover and I will be in each other's orbit for as long as there is that gravitational pull of love, mutual growth, and enjoyment and right now there is plenty of gravitational pull.
And now I must interrupt this blog to continue with my regularly scheduled vacation…
Albert Einstein wrote, “Everything is energy and that’s all there is to it. Match the frequency of the reality you want and you cannot help but get that reality. It can be no other way. This is not philosophy. This is physics.” What reality do you want to create?
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